š For When Youāre Spiritually Advancedā¦ but Existentially Lost š¶āš«ļø
This isn't a plateau. It's a threshold.
There comes a moment in many advanced soulsā paths when you can no longer āorient.ā
This can feel like disorientation. Or an inexplicable grief. Or like youāve plateauād and canāt figure out how to get that same bang out of your old methods and tools.
But itās okay.
You didnāt hit a dead end.
You didnāt take the wrong path.
You have simply reached the edge of the terrain your old maps had charted.
This isnāt a plateau. Itās a threshold.
You may have thought youāve traversed it all:
Trauma work and tantra
Shadow integration and channeling
Lineage healing and inner child reparenting
Soul retrieval and Source remembrance
You know how to excavate, alchemize, forgive, discern.
Youāve perhaps even led others through awakenings you once begged the stars to give you.
And now?
You find yourselfā¦ lost.
Untethered.
Not confusedā¦ but also not rooted.
Not stagnantā¦ but also not directed.
Not asleepā¦ but also not lit.
This is not regression.
This is EMERGENCE.
When you reach the limit of every tool, every language, every cosmology you trained inā¦
You are NOT losing your path.
You are becoming the destination.
This is when you stop asking,
āWhat else is there to excavate?ā
And begin askingā¦
āWhat can now emerge of me as Source through the inner terrain Iāve claimed?ā
This is not a failure to integrate.
This is a call to GENERATE.
So if you are hereā¦
If you feel spiritually seasoned, but lostā¦
Attuned, but adriftā¦
Devoted, but also despairingā¦
Know this:
You are not misaligned.
You are closing the chapter on what got you here, so that you can now bring in the Self of you capable of creating whatās next.
And the ache you feel?
Itās the ache of being pre-verbal in a new soul languageā¦
The ache of beginning to sense-but-not-articulate how to create from Source, not strategyā¦
The ache of no longer seeking to belong to others ā
because you are finally able to belong to YOURSELF.
š So let the questions swirl.
Let the silence echo.
Let the map disintegrate.
Because what youāre here to become?
It doesnāt come with coordinates or a map.
You know why?
Because you already are THAT in the cosmic vastness and divine plenitudesā¦
ā¦ and the relentless excavations and openings youāve reaped for yourself these last years have created space ā not for you to escape elsewhere ā but for you everywhere to finally land HERE.
Youāre not lost, beloved.
Youāre emerging.
With love,
Amaya š
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Have you found yourself feeling unrooted, plateauād or unsure of whatās next? Me too, at times. We are all in this together.
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Every time I read one of your blogs, I feel as though you know me--as though you have so perfectly and articulately captured exactly what is unfolding in my experience. What you share has brought so much illumination and clarity, and left me feeling far less alone. Thank you, Amaya! I am touched and moved by you and your work.
Brilliant post and timely. So like the other post from Amy, you were able to articulate so clearly in a heartfelt way what I am moving through now. I know I am not lost just in transition, on the edge of something. What works for me , meditation, ocean swims and reading articles like your Blessings x